Creative Burst, 2016, Sculptural Painting, Stéphanie Kilgast

Creative Burst, 2016, Sculptural Painting, Stéphanie Kilgast

Put Words on your Intuition

Sometimes, it is important to stop, think and put words on what you are trying to achieve.
So I paused, accessed and realized I was not working on mushrooms, nor crystals, nor bugs (oh yes they’re coming) nor sculptural paintings. I was working on the concept of growth.
Growth of the sculpture on the canvas, but also personal creative growth and the challenges that go with it.
The doubts, the exhilarating feeling of satisfaction, the depression, the post-artwork blues, the struggles, the frustration.

To be honest, I thought about the word “opposition” too.
Full and empty, high and low, euphoric and depressed, creative and blank, confidence and doubt.
And it fits, it just doesn’t resonate as much with my intuitive work and wishes, even though it is my visual approach to my inner struggles.

And boy, do I struggle, it is too much excitement to handle, and too many doubts to wonder, so I take a day off and then I just go on, because it’s the only thing that I can do that makes sense, even though it seems meaningless at times.

Yes, I sound like any other neurotic artist…
On a more positive note : I am an artist!
What I mean is, that I finally feel it. I have forced myself to phrase that for years, but it is only now that I fully embrace it within myself. (yep, I’ve always been a little slow)

So if you doubt in your own creative journey, let the doubts creep on you for a day or two and then just get back to work, the doubts only matter if they make you pause and think so you can better get back to it.

About the painting

Mushrooms grow rapidly, they burst out of the ground after rain, very similar to my creativity that burst out without much control. The mushrooms are often growing on moss, which is here represented by the blue canvas. The blue is mainly a visual choice, close to green, but colder and more abstract, but also in stark contrast to the vibrant mushrooms. It also represents sadness and doubts, on which creativity must grow. (neurotic, much?)


15 thoughts on “Growth // Creative Burst

  • September 8, 2016 at 2:37 pm

    Happy to hear you feel like an artist, since I think that all of us have always thought of you as one!
    Great sculpture painting, and great theme too!

  • September 8, 2016 at 4:05 pm

    Aww! I love your mushrooms! They are so pretty and very realistic as well 🙂 I also love your videos on how you’ve created them!

  • September 8, 2016 at 6:26 pm

    Nope, not the least bit neurotic, Stephanie. At least, I hope not, because I think the same way!

    We all have our times of doubts, our slumps, those times when inspiration flees and everything feels “meh.” These cycles of brain-full-of-too-many-ideas-to-ever-accomplish-in-a-lifetime > productivity > no-desire-to-do-anything-at-all aren’t a sign of neurosis, but a natural part of the creative process.

    A few years ago I found this info by Marnie Pehrson really helpful. // No, I didn’t buy anything and am not affiliated, but I thought the one telecall was enlightening and worth listening to.

    I’ve admired your work for some time now and really enjoy your videos, and yes, your voice overs. 🙂

    • September 8, 2016 at 6:47 pm

      yes! I have that feeling that many artists (or creative people) work in that pattern of high and low. But it’s good to say it out loud, as you don’t always realize you’re not alone in this. So thank you!

  • September 8, 2016 at 6:50 pm

    Impressive, how honestly you describe and write about what you feel inside.

  • September 8, 2016 at 6:51 pm

    I’ve been enjoying the growing ride with you, and am happy that you are starting to feel the things you wanted to feel. Amazing painting!

  • September 9, 2016 at 5:18 am

    merci pour ces impressions partagées qui expliquent (un peu) ton processus de création
    quoiqu ‘il en soit :bravo
    eh oui laisser les choses germer ,murir, se développer
    et éclore enfin dans toute leur maturité
    ou pas d’ailleurs! et reprendre, transformer, évoluer à nouveau …

    les champignons et surtout leur mise en scène ici sont comme toujours impressionnants

  • September 9, 2016 at 6:34 am

    Yes, you are an artist. What you do it is brilliant and it was brilliant before too. I like the word “growing”, it is more natural than personal development and the symbolic is the same. Looking forward to your bugs:) I’m excited (the beautiful bugs in my mind a while…:)

  • September 20, 2016 at 6:56 pm

    i saw your new cool video about your atellier. I have a quesion: you showed a piece of furniture where you storage your miniatures, the one with the wooden drawer next to your computer.. is this drawer a original one for printing letters (Setzkasten)? I got one recently from a friend who knows that I also sculpt miniatures. I couldnt decide what to do with it (hang on the wall,..) yet. Did you make the cupboard yourself or did you bought the white shelf? 🙂 Very interesting video!!

    • September 22, 2016 at 9:41 am

      Yes, we found those two drawers at a local flea market years ago.
      And we made the cupboard ourselves to fit them in 🙂


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